I have no advice to give.

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The following idea has bounced around my brain and heart the past few weeks:

I have no advice to give.

Sometimes, this blog feels heavy on my shoulders. Not because I don't love writing (I do) and not because I don't love and appreciate whoever reads my words (I do), but because I'm approaching a phase where I'm tired of giving advice.

Growing up, the themes that ran in and out of my life were always teaching and technology. I've been drawn to both of them all my life. Decades later, it feels like coming full circle to "teach" by writing on the internet. But we don't always have be taught, and we don't always have to be learning.

Sometimes, being just the way I am is perfect.

So far in 2016, I don't have any advice to give you. Sure, there are ideas that I'd like to share—I even half-wrote a blog post about what I've learned so far in my 12 days of a meditation practice. But, right now, I don't want you, me, all of us to feel like we should be trying something different, learning some new tactic, doing something else.

Sometimes, being just the way I am is perfect.

I'm a lover of progress, but I'm also a lover of the present moment. There seems to be a balance between the two: to move forward and to enjoy the here and now. In truth, it feels more like a see-saw. Some days I'm swinging upward—learning, striving, trying. Other days, my feet are rooted on the ground—enjoying, noticing, being. And that's where I find myself lately, with little energy to keep trying something new, instead peacefully resigned to being me, as I am right now.

Sometimes, being just the way I am is perfect.

Our resolutions keep pushing us, don't they? I for one am tackling a few (daily meditation, no coffee or alcohol, letting go of toxic people). At times, they feel difficult to follow, but it feels like a good kind of striving. But deep in my gut I know what I should be trying to achieve and what I should just let be. On this day, in this month, in this moment, there's a lot I'm letting sit—and it feels wonderful.

Sometimes, being just the way I am is perfect.

I have no advice to give you, but I do have my experiences, and this feeling I'm enjoying right now is one I wanted to share. Because being at peace with the state of things right now, as they are, feels like a long-needed rest.

May you find some rest, as well, if you so need it.

xo,
Marcella